This is something that I have been constantly repeating to myself for weeks now.
There have been some very good days and moments, don’t get me wrong but equally some low moments. And that’s okay too.
We are allowed to mourn the life we never had, one that didn’t include injections or carb counting. And it’s okay to struggle with the unlimited daily tasks of diabetes whether that’s down to acceptance or finding the mental strength top carry out tasks that allow us to live a ‘normal’ life. And that is okay too. We do not have all the answers about why us? Will I be able to do this for the rest of my life? Whether this takes days or years, its bloody tough!
It’s okay to struggling, it’s okay to miss blood sugar checks or bolus every single time (advised you do not do this for your health but if you miss a couple because you forget or are struggling – there is no worries. We are all human and no one is perfect!)
On a very personal note, I find that some days are perfect, I feel like ‘the perfect diabetic’ (there is no such thing) but other days wow. I have no words to describe the hatred, sometimes no amount of insulin will bring the blood sugars down. You follow all of the rules the hospital gives you and nothing works. It just makes you want to curl up in a ball and cry your heart out.
I suppose there isn’t a purpose to this blog post, I am just trying to articulate how rubbish diabetes can be. That it isn’t just injections, it is so much more than that. If you need time to adjust or come to terms with your diagnosis, even years after that has happen – that’s completely normal. You do you. Take as much time as you need and whatever those techniques are, it doesn’t matter if it is not conventional.
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